As excited as I am for Kennedy to get here I can’t help but feel sad about closing this chapter in our life. The part where it’s been just the 2 of us. The part where David doesn’t love anyone else more than me. Yep, I said it… I guess that makes me sort of jealous of my unborn child. Anyways, I know it’s a different kind of love, but I still have to share him 🙂
Some people have even less time together before they throw a baby in the mix and maybe that’s part of my problem… I’ve had it this way for too long. But, as long as it’s been, dating since high school and almost 4 years being married, I’m just not sick of him yet 😉 It’s not “date nights” because I really don’t care about those at all and that’s what babysitters (or sisters) are for anyways. It’s the plain, old quality time that I’m going to miss.
The boring stuff…
… when I sit in the boat with him and we talk while he works on it or I help him change the oil or whatever.
… when we go get Sonic at 10 at night
… when we stay in bed 5 extra minutes in the morning to cuddle.
… when we work on a project around the house together.
There really isn’t much we don’t do together right now and while I know some things Kennedy can just join in on, I also know that she’ll separate us more often too. I don’t see me taking her up in the boat while he works on it, I see myself inside taking care of her while he does what we used to do together.
I’m sure that once she’s here I’ll love our new normal more than anything, but until then I’m going to be sad about the change. So I guess, until things change, I’m just going to make sure I enjoy these last few weeks, just the 2 of us, and try to box it all up and commit it to memory.